#payitforward

So the other night I went shopping online cuz I had a 40% coupon, I got $20 in free bonus cash since well i just bought stuff lol.

Found out today a friend needed a new coat for her son cause he out grew his old one and money is tight for her, I knew I wouldn't need the $20 bonus cash right away & it would prolly expire before Id use it cause I really don't need to spend more money right now and I didn't see anything i really needed, (it also expires in 3 days so yeah and I knew hubby wouldn't mind exp since it was well free money) so I gave it to my friend along with the 20% coupon, she was able to get a $75 coat for $25! She only had $60 to last 2 weeks before her and her hubby get paid again.

Thing is i got called selfish a few weeks ago from someone i had to cut outta my life because i was tired of one sided friendships. If I was so selfish would I have seriously done something like this? Nahhh!

I am just glad and happy I was able to help a friend that needed it, ive always been this kinda person, to many ppl have taken advantage of it over the years, reason those so called "friends" have been slowly weeded out of our lives and kept the friends close that appreciate it and return the favor when needed if not to us but someone else

If you can in life its always good to help someone who really needs it if your able, it made my day hearing about how excited her son was for his jacket, things like this just make you happy knowing you helped those in need.

I cried happy tears tonight knowing I put a smile on their faces

126lbs lost!

Past, year: 2000:

Getting made fun of for being in shape, hiding myself under sweat suits even in 100 degree summers, girls in high school & girls home i lived in made fun of me, saying i looked like a boy, no guys wanted to be with me etc. I gained 200lbs after high school over 17 years ago, guys flocked and i thought i was doing something right, so i stopped giving a shit about myself. Damage to my confidence and self esteem and self worth was done.

2005-2015:

I tried to get on track when Hubby & I first got married but the stress of moving to the US wasn't helping. So i got set in my ways. 2009 I seen a doctor who sent me down the wrong path, she had me on unlimited meat, eggs, cheese and 20 carbs a day ONLY from veggies. Everything else was cut out.

3 months passed my numbers on my heath cart were though the roof. But the doctor insisted i continue. Another 3 months went by I was in tears, sure i lost 60lbs but i was feeling like crap. My hubby started a new job and i went and got a 2nd opinion once the health coverage kicked in, turns out due to the diet etc the doc had me on, i was 3 months shy of having a heart attack and dying at 26 years old. Doctors told me to go get whole grain pasta and eat! I cried and ate the whole box that night. That crazy doc even had me on diabetic meds even though i wasn't diabetic ! 4 times the amount a normal diabetic would take, scary stuff!

I eventually in 19 months lost 156lbs, but I got scared thinking back to high school and fell backwards in my ways. Because of the making fun and stuff i went though in high school for being in shape.

May 2015:

Finally may 2015 I started getting back on track again. I was tired all the time. So I sat and wrote myself this list.... (at the time i had kids stuff on this list too til i found out i couldn't have kids)

Pros

- Living a long time to spend with my hubby/family/friends

- Being able to do things (run/walk/lift etc) and not be outta breath

- Enjoy more of what life has to offer

to name a few things, the cons always out weigh'd the bad

Cons

- Dying early

- Leaving my family/hubby/friends behind

- Being so overweight when i do pass on they casket will cost more being more heavy then my poor family having to carry my body being so heavy someone may hurt themselves

- Having my hubby wait on me hand and foot cause id be so overweight i can't do things for myself (bathe, cook, clean etc)

- Health insurance costing more

- Not getting a lot with life insurance

to name a few other things, it keeps me motivated to get my ass in check even more!

I had to give myself tough love.

Today:

Realization & Motivation. Realizing that the haters are over 1000 miles away in another country. I gave myself a goal of cosplaying She-Hulk at comicon next year in 2018.

Still working on self esteem and confidence, its a endless battle for the moment but very much improved over the last 17 years.

As you know Hubby and I now workout together, we both knew we let ourselves go to long. We been married 12.5 years now. He used to be into bodybuilding back in the army but seeing me in my ways I am sure it made him fall in bad ways too. Not to mention my cooking and my Canadian portion sizes as he teased me. Cause I always did huge portions.

I also had a bad habit of when i went shopping for food, id buy junk food and hide it. Candy, chips, soda, etc. It was bad, to this day I finally admitted to hubby that I used to do these things, he about fell over. Cause he never knew til now. I don't have that habit now thankfully I broke it!

We both wanna live a long time together its important to us. We can't have kids, we tried to adopt but no luck there either. So we want to make the best of life. Make our next life the one we are able to have a lot of kids in 　

Im not going back this time, only forward

In 28 months im down 126lbs and almost 60 inches in my waist, it was hard getting back on track after the first gain loss gain. I dont' wanna do that again cause next time it will be even harder.

I would of been down more but a year ago after working out at home for just over a year and losing 115lbs. I joined a gym. But the trainer I had at my last gym was telling me to eat more, training 5 days a week 2-3hrs a day.... I didn't weigh myself for quite a few months but i felt like I was bloated all the time and I didn't feel any different. I jumped on the scale, i ended up gaining 50lbs back in 6 months!~

January this year I started doing my own thing again. Lost 10lbs and 5 inches in that month doing my husbands old workout routine from when he was in the army.

April this year i joined a new gym, new trainer, new food coach even, 6 weeks and down 15lbs and 6 more inches! Even more since then!

But anyway, that's that

Inspiration and Struggles

Watching the Mae Young Classic and having comments back from Alpha Female and other wrestlers in my weight loss & journey.
Hearing their stories inspired me to write mine.

Here is a bit of my story of what I been though.

I started out in high school being fit and in shape doing spots, track and weight lifting, girls made fun of me for it saying i looked like a boy. I hid myself for years under track suits even in 100+ degree summers, they used to tell me no guy would wanna date me cause i was to in shape. I was a bit smaller then Dana Brooke from WWE.



After high school i quit smoking and turned to food, gained 200lbs in 2 years and guys flocked. Thought i was doing something right.

After high school I was in a serious relationship for 5 years. I put up with a lot during that time. Mental and Physical abuse. I really didn't have anywhere to go since I was pretty much abandoned from my family. Cause when I was 11 I went though abuse at home & when i confronted my step mother about some of that abuse she sent me to live with my real mothers brother and his family.

I was there for 3 years then started living with friends and moving around. One of my friends parents sent me off to live with a friend of theirs. Turns out these girls were young, in their 20s already had kids but no father around for these kids. I ended up babysitting a lot when they went out bar hopping. They would bring men home and have sex with them on the couch next to me while i was trying to sleep. When i went to enroll into school, they dropped me off for the day and i called my step mother, took a chance to tell her what I was going though. Her brother came and picked me up and took me back to the city where they were at.

Few months another moving back home I moved into a girls home cause things weren't working out the way we all hoped, being away for 6+ years from my family there were a lot of problems that came though trying to get along with my step sister, half sister and half brother. Even the girls there some of them made fun of me, exp when we went to get makeovers and they didn't even rekon me with makeup and stuff on, one girl busted out with, "Omg Tina looks like a girl" Super hurtful. :(

But back to my serious relationship, beginning was good. But when I moved in with my ex boyfriend and his parents we were trying to get a place of our own after my ex got a job. Which he finally did and we moved.

We ate out a lot, we would spend $100's on food at the store, quick meals etc. But then we would still manage to eat out. Even though we were in so much debt. I thought a few times about getting back on track with my weight but he would always think it was me cheating on him or i was going to leave him. At that present time I wasn't planning on it. But as years past I grew out of love with him but i just stayed cause I couldn't afford to go on my own and I just put up with a lot. Cause I was scared.

Exp after he showed up at my work like a crazy person and said he forgot his key. So I gave him mine and that's when he laughed like a mad man and said i was a liar and a cheat and left. We weren't even together at this point, turned out he was going though my emails and chat logs and saw me talking to some of my friends from over seas about wanting to go about my chef dream and travel.... yeah I'm cheating alright ;) lol

I had to leave work that day and rush home so i could get into the apartment, which i couldn't so i went to a local library and emailed him cause i knew he would be on the computer. He told me to get home now before he went to bed or don't bother at all coming back.

We became roommates after that for awhile for almost a year. First 8 months of that though i had to quit my job after 4 years, out of being embarrassed cause of what happened. He never gave me my key back and i couldn't leave the apartment or id be screwed. I tried calling my dad/step mom and they told me i couldn't come back home, my friends all moved etc and didn't have extra spots, i lost other friends while dating this guy... It was a crazy nightmare. So I sat and chatted on my computer all day with friends and slept on the couch when he was asleep and be awake when he was at work.

Back to my story, adventure, whichever you wanna call it...

Summer of 2004 I met my hubby thought a mutual friend, we all online gamed together. She lived in MI, hubby lived in MO and i lived in Canada. We talked online/phone for 6 months then he drove 14hrs where I was and popped the question. We ran off and got married 2 days later.

I tried to get on track when we first got married but the stress of moving to the US wasn't helping. So i got set in my ways. 2009 I seen a doctor who sent me down the wrong path, she had me on unlimited meat, eggs, cheese and 20 carbs a day ONLY from veggies. Everything else was cut out.

3 months passed my numbers on my heath cart were though the roof. But the doctor insisted i continue. Another 3 months went by I was in tears, sure i lost 60lbs but i was feeling like crap. My hubby started a new job and i went and got a 2nd opinion once the health coverage kicked in, turns out due to the diet etc the doc had me on, i was 3 months shy of having a heart attack and dying at 26 years old. Doctors told me to go get whole grain pasta and eat! I cried and ate the whole box that night. That crazy doc even had me on diabetic meds even though i wasn't diabetic ! 4 times the amount a normal diabetic would take, scary stuff!

I eventually in 19 months lost 156lbs, but I got scared thinking back to high school and fell backwards in my ways.

Finally may 2015 I started getting back on track again. I was tired all the time. So I sat and wrote myself this list.... (at the time i had kids stuff on this list too til i found out i couldn't have kids)

Pros

- Living a long time to spend with my hubby/family/friends

- Being able to do things (run/walk/lift etc) and not be outta breath

- Enjoy more of what life has to offer

to name a few things, the cons always out weigh'd the bad

Cons

- Dying early

- Leaving my family/hubby/friends behind

- Being so overweight when i do pass on they casket will cost more being more heavy then my poor family having to carry my body being so heavy someone may hurt themselves

- Having my hubby wait on me hand and foot cause id be so overweight i can't do things for myself (bathe, cook, clean etc)

- Health insurance costing more

- Not getting a lot with life insurance

to name a few other things, it keeps me motivated to get my ass in check even more!

I had to give myself tough love.

So it gave me motivation. Realizing that the haters are over 1000 miles away in another country. I gave myself a goal of cosplaying She-Hulk at comicon next year in 2018.

My husband and I now workout together, we both knew we let ourselves go to long. We been married 12.5 years now. He used to be into bodybuilding back in the army but seeing me in my ways I am sure it made him fall in bad ways too. Not to mention my cooking and my Canadian portion sizes as he teased me. Cause I always did huge portions.

I also had a bad habit of when i went shopping for food, id buy junk food and hide it. Candy, chips, soda, etc. It was bad, to this day I finally admitted to hubby that I used to do these things, he about fell over. Cause he never knew til now. I don't have that habit now thankfully I broke it!

We both wanna live a long time together its important to us. We can't have kids, we tried to adopt but no luck there either. So we want to make the best of life. Make our next life the one we are able to have a lot of kids in 　

Im not going back this time, only forward :)

In 28 months im down 125lbs and 58 inches in my waist, it was hard getting back on track after the first gain loss gain. I dont' wanna do that again cause next time it will be even harder.

I would of been down more but a year ago after working out at home for just over a year and losing 115lbs. I joined a gym. But the trainer I had at my last gym was telling me to eat more, training 5 days a week 2-3hrs a day.... I didn't weigh myself for quite a few months but i felt like I was bloated all the time and I didn't feel any different. I jumped on the scale, i ended up gaining 50lbs back in 6 months!~ :(

January this year I started doing my own thing again. Lost 10lbs and 5 inches in that month doing my husbands old workout routine from when he was in the army.

April this year i joined a new gym, new trainer, new food coach even, 6 weeks and down 15lbs and 6 more inches! Even more since then!

But anyway, that's that :)

I made this long enough for now, stay tuned for more updates!

Inspiration, Struggles, Wrestling & Updates!

I haven't posted in awhile.
Things have been crazy busy!
I am trying to use twitter again, its been awhile.
But I am going to try to keep up with it best I can!

My Twitter

Watching the Mae Young Classic and having comments back from Alpha Female and other wrestlers in my weight loss & journey.
Hearing their stories inspired me to write mine.

First thing is first, little life update.

The weather here hasn't been so kind.
Our basement flooded from the water that came over from our neighbors side, twice.
The first time our basement flooded we got a cleaning crew out here within 1-2 days.
Hubby had to take the night off work to help me suck up water.
Our library walls are 1/2 gone, carpet totally ripped out, still need to trash shelves etc.
Just really can't fix anything til our neighbors finish their window.
That's where the water came in.
Sounds like they are gonna get to it soon, hopefully anyway.
Our cats are really sad their room is all taken apart, as are we.
Salem has been crying since it's all happened and it breaks my heart.
But we will get things back together hopefully soon.

Super excited yesterday the first 4 episodes of the Mae Young Classic.
Which is totally exciting!
It's a huge inspiration seeing these ladies & hearing their stories and journey to get where they are today!

Jazzy "Alpha Female" Gabert has always been a huge inspiration for me on my weight loss journey, seeing her progress as she trains, wrestles, hearing her words of what she had been though growing up and even now. Just huge inspiration all around.

I could go though each lady and write something about them but id be here all night/day trying to name every single wrestler that inspires me. Reason I did mention Jazzy is cause I will admit there is something about her, I don't know what it is, I can't put my finger on it but I really admire her, i mean I do all the ladies but Jazzy if you read this I just don't know what it is about you. But hey its all good things!

Actually my grandfather on my dad's side his parents are from Germany, my maiden name is German !! =) But anyway! Not to sound creepy but im hoping to meet quite a few of you ladies some day! At least its a big dream for the moment =)

Here is a bit of my story of what I been though.

I started out in high school being fit and in shape doing spots, track and weight lifting, girls made fun of me for it saying i looked like a boy. I hid myself for years under track suits even in 100+ degree summers, they used to tell me no guy would wanna date me cause i was to in shape. I was a bit smaller then Dana Brooke from WWE.

After high school i quit smoking and turned to food, gained 200lbs in 2 years and guys flocked. Thought i was doing something right.

After high school I was in a serious relationship for 5 years. I put up with a lot during that time. Mental and Physical abuse. I really didn't have anywhere to go since I was pretty much abandoned from my family. Cause when I was 11 I went though abuse at home & when i confronted my step mother about some of that abuse she sent me to live with my real mothers brother and his family.

I was there for 3 years then started living with friends and moving around. One of my friends parents sent me off to live with a friend of theirs. Turns out these girls were young, in their 20s already had kids but no father around for these kids. I ended up babysitting a lot when they went out bar hopping. They would bring men home and have sex with them on the couch next to me while i was trying to sleep. When i went to enroll into school, they dropped me off for the day and i called my step mother, took a chance to tell her what I was going though. Her brother came and picked me up and took me back to the city where they were at.

Few months another moving back home I moved into a girls home cause things weren't working out the way we all hoped, being away for 6+ years from my family there were a lot of problems that came though trying to get along with my step sister, half sister and half brother. Even the girls there some of them made fun of me, exp when we went to get makeovers and they didn't even rekon me with makeup and stuff on, one girl busted out with, "Omg Tina looks like a girl" Super hurtful. :(

But back to my serious relationship, beginning was good. But when I moved in with my ex boyfriend and his parents we were trying to get a place of our own after my ex got a job. Which he finally did and we moved.

We ate out a lot, we would spend $100's on food at the store, quick meals etc. But then we would still manage to eat out. Even though we were in so much debt. I thought a few times about getting back on track with my weight but he would always think it was me cheating on him or i was going to leave him. At that present time I wasn't planning on it. But as years past I grew out of love with him but i just stayed cause I couldn't afford to go on my own and I just put up with a lot. Cause I was scared.

Exp after he showed up at my work like a crazy person and said he forgot his key. So I gave him mine and that's when he laughed like a mad man and said i was a liar and a cheat and left. We weren't even together at this point, turned out he was going though my emails and chat logs and saw me talking to some of my friends from over seas about wanting to go about my chef dream and travel.... yeah I'm cheating alright ;) lol

I had to leave work that day and rush home so i could get into the apartment, which i couldn't so i went to a local library and emailed him cause i knew he would be on the computer. He told me to get home now before he went to bed or don't bother at all coming back.

We became roommates after that for awhile for almost a year. First 8 months of that though i had to quit my job after 4 years, out of being embarrassed cause of what happened. He never gave me my key back and i couldn't leave the apartment or id be screwed. I tried calling my dad/step mom and they told me i couldn't come back home, my friends all moved etc and didn't have extra spots, i lost other friends while dating this guy... It was a crazy nightmare. So I sat and chatted on my computer all day with friends and slept on the couch when he was asleep and be awake when he was at work.

My ex boyfriend when we were together would also watch porn when i was in the same room as him or in the house period and wanna get his knocks off. Reason I can't stand men who do that kinda thing when they are in a relationship. If your gonna be with someone be with them, exp if they are in the same house as you. I could see if your partner is away on business or at work or well for woman when we are having that time of the month but still don't do it when we are home. Stop acting like a 12 year old that can't keep his hands outta his pants, or a two year old that found his penis for the first time and cant' stop playing with it and the mom has to keep slapping your hand away. It's so disrespectful. Anyway that's just my rant on that!

Back to my story, adventure, whichever you wanna call it...

Summer of 2004 I met my hubby thought a mutual friend, we all online gamed together. She lived in MI, hubby lived in MO and i lived in Canada. We talked online/phone for 6 months then he drove 14hrs where I was and popped the question. We ran off and got married 2 days later.

I tried to get on track when we first got married but the stress of moving to the US wasn't helping. So i got set in my ways. 2009 I seen a doctor who sent me down the wrong path, she had me on unlimited meat, eggs, cheese and 20 carbs a day ONLY from veggies. Everything else was cut out.

3 months passed my numbers on my heath cart were though the roof. But the doctor insisted i continue. Another 3 months went by I was in tears, sure i lost 60lbs but i was feeling like crap. My hubby started a new job and i went and got a 2nd opinion once the health coverage kicked in, turns out due to the diet etc the doc had me on, i was 3 months shy of having a heart attack and dying at 26 years old. Doctors told me to go get whole grain pasta and eat! I cried and ate the whole box that night. That crazy doc even had me on diabetic meds even though i wasn't diabetic ! 4 times the amount a normal diabetic would take, scary stuff!

I eventually in 19 months lost 156lbs, but I got scared thinking back to high school and fell backwards in my ways.

Finally may 2015 I started getting back on track again. I was tired all the time. So I sat and wrote myself this list.... (at the time i had kids stuff on this list too til i found out i couldn't have kids)

Pros

- Living a long time to spend with my hubby/family/friends

- Being able to do things (run/walk/lift etc) and not be outta breath

- Enjoy more of what life has to offer

to name a few things, the cons always out weigh'd the bad

Cons

- Dying early

- Leaving my family/hubby/friends behind

- Being so overweight when i do pass on they casket will cost more being more heavy then my poor family having to carry my body being so heavy someone may hurt themselves

- Having my hubby wait on me hand and foot cause id be so overweight i can't do things for myself (bathe, cook, clean etc)

- Health insurance costing more

- Not getting a lot with life insurance

to name a few other things, it keeps me motivated to get my ass in check even more!

I had to give myself tough love.

So it gave me motivation. Realizing that the haters are over 1000 miles away in another country. I gave myself a goal of cosplaying She-Hulk at comicon next year in 2018.

My husband and I now workout together, we both knew we let ourselves go to long. We been married 12.5 years now. He used to be into bodybuilding back in the army but seeing me in my ways I am sure it made him fall in bad ways too. Not to mention my cooking and my Canadian portion sizes as he teased me. Cause I always did huge portions.

I also had a bad habit of when i went shopping for food, id buy junk food and hide it. Candy, chips, soda, etc. It was bad, to this day I finally admitted to hubby that I used to do these things, he about fell over. Cause he never knew til now. I don't have that habit now thankfully I broke it!

We both wanna live a long time together its important to us. We can't have kids, we tried to adopt but no luck there either. So we want to make the best of life. Make our next life the one we are able to have a lot of kids in 　

Im not going back this time, only forward :)

In 27 months im down 123lbs and 55+ inches in my waist, it was hard getting back on track after the first gain loss gain. I dont' wanna do that again cause next time it will be even harder.

I would of been down more but a year ago after working out at home for just over a year and losing 115lbs. I joined a gym. But the trainer I had at my last gym was telling me to eat more, training 5 days a week 2-3hrs a day.... I didn't weigh myself for quite a few months but i felt like I was bloated all the time and I didn't feel any different. I jumped on the scale, i ended up gaining 50lbs back in 6 months!~ :(

January this year I started doing my own thing again. Lost 10lbs and 5 inches in that month doing my husbands old workout routine from when he was in the army.

April this year i joined a new gym, new trainer, new food coach even, 6 weeks and down 15lbs and 6 more inches! Even more since then!

But anyway, that's that :)

I made this long enough for now, stay tuned for more updates!

ps. if you have the WWE network i highly recommend the Mae Young Classic, if your a wrestling fan!

Final Fantasy XIV - My White Mage Hit 70!

Truth!

Life Updates/Fitness Goals!

Hey There!
I haven't updated in forever and a day and for that I do apologize!
Things been so crazy over the last bit, doing our comics, going to conventions to promote them, wrestling shows, holidays etc etc
Even now things are still pretty crazy!
One thing after another it seems but keeping busy is good but at the same time getting lost in translation so to speak.

I still been keeping up with my art but as of late been taking a break.

Why?

Final Fantasy XIV thats one reason!

Expansion is coming out in about 10 weeks and I wanna get all my classes to 60!

I managed 7 in the last 7 weeks with 5 more classes yet to get!

Another reason is cause im sick of all the asshats that think beautiful is someone who has a flat tummy and is fit, in shape etc

It's all i see on that stupid website anymore and I want the damn thing to burn in hell.

One reason why I hated doing art anymore, my watchers just wanted to see wrestling, I did erotica too, but if I posted a slightly curvy women, oh hell would break loose with some of them (not all).

I found it starting to stress me out and getting discouraged with my gains/losses. 

Between all the shit I gotta see and hear about though friends to seeing stuff though art and on DA and everything else, ive been at a stand still since I joined the gym cause im stressing out all the damn time cause of things that people do around me and things I hear and i feel like im trash.

Plus I have been getting back on track now with my weight loss for 2 years next month! I should be further along then I am! This is bull shit!

Here let me copy/paste something here on weight loss pages to help others, maybe it will help me stay focused (copying word for word bare with me) but i leave you with this.....

Hey there everyone!

I know Ive wrote this before but I am writing it again, not just for me but for those friends that been asking me my journey, my story, what got me on track.

It's not easy, but Imma keep pushin!

Here is a bit about me and my story with my weight gain/loss/gain then loss again!

May of 2015 i started getting back on track with my workouts.

I did the first 15 months at home and lost 115lbs joined Planet Fitness in August 2016 and gained 40lbs back due to muscle gain, then pleateu'd due to trainers telling me i wasn't eating enough to eat more..... But I am still plowing though!

Measurements 2 days ago when I checked!

Hips starting over 100 inches, now 49.5!
Waist starting over 80 inches today 43.5!
Arms starting 28inches, today 16 inches (unflexed)!
Thighs starting over 40 inches around, today 24 inches! 

I am hoping to lose my last 100lbs i gained from when I quit smoking this year and be at my goal to cosplay She-Hulk at comicon in 2018!

Here is more of my story to understand my history/experience a bit!

I used to be 135 when i graduated high school back in 2000, but I will tell you something that may or may not make sense to some of you.
I was always fit in shape and doing sports and track in high school I got made fun of cause i was such a tomboy, I benched my weight (90lbs to start and as I gained more muscle i lifted heavier, top weight 135 both lifting and weighing) and did 600+lbs on my legs, I was strong and bigger then the girls in my classes.

They used to ask the teachers if i was on the wrong side of the class and if I should be with the guys. They used to say I looked more like a boy then a girl.... when I graduated I looked a bit smaller then Dana Brooke from WWE.

I used to get made fun of and told that no guy would want me cause i looked like a man or that unless i was skinny or fat no guy would have any interest.

When I graduated I was in a home for girls, even then the girls there made fun of me and one time we went for makeovers for a girls night out, when they came to find me they kept walking right by me til I turned around when they said "Here is Tina!" One girl busted out with "Omg, Tina looks like a girl!!" It was very hurtful.

From that day on I quit smoking and turned to food, Turned off one bad habit to another. Once I started gaining the weight the guys started to flock around me. I thought I was doing something right....

......which wasn't true.

I mean i worked at a coffee shop which was a bad start to it all, would eat a dozen or more donuts a day AND didn't help I ate out often. I dated a guy that we would spend $300 or more a month on food but never eat at home. It was a bad rut I was in, didn't think anything of it. Thought about it some after we split up but ended up going into a I don't care phase.

I met my hubby though a friend we both knew online, (I grew up in Canada i live in the USA with him now as most of you have heard a billion times) the US is so much diff then back home!!
My hubby told me when I was in shape guys where most likely scared to ask me out because I was so beautiful. He told me that I am beautiful even now but when I get back in shape it will show along with my confidence.

Him and I been married since 2005, we got married on Valentines day.

Its been a rough road from trying to get down from 335ish (my top weight) to where I am now, up and down over the years, I even dropped half a person at one point (156lb loss), but because of all the making fun of over the years I got scared and put the weight back on...

This time i wont let it!!

Im determined to get my weight off for good this time!

Also Cause I wanna cosplay She-Hulk at comicon next year cause one of my friends said she would cosplay Hellcat since She-Hulk and Hellcat are best buddies! 

I wrote myself a list pros and cons of getting healthy, made sure I was super mean to myself at the sametime, i had to give myself tough love!

Pros

- Living a long time to spend with my hubby/family/friends

- Being able to do things (run/walk/lift etc) and not be outta breath

- Enjoy more of what life has to offer

To name a few things, the cons always out weigh'd the bad

Cons

- Dying early

- Leaving my family/hubby/friends behind 

- Being so overweight when i do pass on they casket will cost more being more heavy then my poor family having to carry my body being so heavy someone may hurt themselves

- Having my hubby wait on me hand and foot cause id be so overweight i can't do things for myself (bathe, cook, clean etc)

- Health insurance costing more

- Not getting a lot with life insurance

to name a few other things, it keeps me motivated to get my ass in check even more!

It's just not workouts its your Diet too



Here is some tips that may help ya cause it did help me



Make sure your eating enough calories (woman 1200 or more a day no less) reason no less your body will go into starvation mode and store everything and turn it back into weight/fat.
Carbs make sure low carb, cut back on white starch foods (potatoes, pasta etc) go half on the servings or less. Add in healthy fats for snacks avocado, nuts etc. I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, keeps the metabolism up.

Increase your protein 150g or more per day, eat a lot of veggies (green ones). Increase your fiber it helps keep everything moving. Drink 10+ glasses of water a day. Add spices to your food (talking hot spicy stuff) as well as green tea and lemons. 

They help burn fat



Switch up your workouts, instead of doing just cardio, toss in some weight training. Use a diff cardio machine instead of the same one you been using everyday. The smaller you get the harder it gets cause it takes 3500 BURNED calories to lose 1lb of fat. Make sure your not eating processed food and check your sodium intake too, should be no more then 2500mg a day. To much sodium can cause you to hold water = weight gain. So stay away from processed foods!

What ive learned in my up and down weight loss/gain over the years, i hope it helps. Also make sure your not eating back the calories you burned. Burned calories are just that, it takes 3500 of them to lose 1lb remember that so if your eating back your burned calories you wont see any results.
Hang in there you wanna do this, YOU CAN! YOU GOT THIS! 

Stress can cause weight gain/plateau's too. One thing i learned and anyone will say this, toss the scale away, just go by your clothes or weighing once a month, stress = weight killer. Also be sure to get 6-8hrs of sleep a night cause that does help too!

I eat and do a lot of protein cause i workout 5 days a week but 3 of those days im training 2-3hrs with weights/core/cardio, 2 days im training 1-1.5 hrs with cardio/core

Good luck 

What I do:

Sunday: Upper/core/cardio
Monday : Core/cardio
Tuesday : Conditioning/core/cardio
Wed: Core/cardio
Thurs: Lower/core/cardio

those 3 big days i workout 2-3hrs
those 2 cardio days i do 1 to 1.5hrs of training
I always take fri/sat off

Your body always needs a day of rest and a day between upper/lower etc to recover, you don't you will have higher risk of injury and your body wont recover properly, eat more protein too, it helps recovery


2 years next month since I got started back on track!!

Over 100lbs down too!

Gained 200lbs when i quit smoking getting it off for good this time!

I don't weigh myself often but last time i hopped on my scale it says im truckin 100lbs of muscle now on my total weight WOO!

It's not easy, im going the old fashioned route, clean diet and exercise, once in awhile a cheat meal but busting my ass.

I haven't had any surgery, I will be honest years and years back I did try diet pills but the weight came back twice as fast when I stopped taking them, cause it caused high blood pressure. Which I should be off those meds soon, I was desperate cause I had a 8 month plateau that was haunting me. But I learned my lesson on that!

No taking the easy way out!

But lets get it done!

Thanks to all those family friends and even hubby for being my cheerleaders i couldn't have gotten this far without you all, thank you!

My gains, My losses, My Determination !

Hey there everyone!

I know Ive wrote this before but I am writing it again, not just for me but for those friends that been asking me my journey, my story, what got me on track.

It's not easy, but Imma keep pushin!

Here is a bit about me and my story with my weight gain/loss/gain then loss again!

May of 2015 i started getting back on track with my workouts.

I did the first 15 months at home and lost 115lbs joined Planet Fitness in August 2016 and gained 40lbs back due to muscle gain, then pleateu'd due to trainers telling me i wasn't eating enough to eat more..... But I am still plowing though!

Measurements 2 days ago when I checked!

Hips starting over 100 inches, now 49.5!
Waist starting over 80 inches today 43.5!
Arms starting 28inches, today 16 inches (unflexed)!
Thighs starting over 40 inches around, today 24 inches!

I am hoping to lose my last 100lbs i gained from when I quit smoking this year and be at my goal to cosplay She-Hulk at comicon in 2018!

Here is more of my story to understand my history/experience a bit!

I used to be 135 when i graduated high school back in 2000, but I will tell you something that may or may not make sense to some of you.

I was always fit in shape and doing sports and track in high school I got made fun of cause i was such a tomboy, I benched my weight (90lbs to start and as I gained more muscle i lifted heavier, top weight 135 both lifting and weighing) and did 600+lbs on my legs, I was strong and bigger then the girls in my classes.

They used to ask the teachers if i was on the wrong side of the class and if I should be with the guys. They used to say I looked more like a boy then a girl.... when I graduated I looked a bit smaller then Dana Brooke from WWE.

I used to get made fun of and told that no guy would want me cause i looked like a man or that unless i was skinny or fat no guy would have any interest.

When I graduated I was in a home for girls, even then the girls there made fun of me and one time we went for makeovers for a girls night out, when they came to find me they kept walking right by me til I turned around when they said "Here is Tina!" One girl busted out with "Omg, Tina looks like a girl!!" It was very hurtful.

From that day on I quit smoking and turned to food, Turned off one bad habit to another. Once I started gaining the weight the guys started to flock around me. I thought I was doing something right....

......which wasn't true.

I mean i worked at a coffee shop which was a bad start to it all, would eat a dozen or more donuts a day AND didn't help I ate out often. I dated a guy that we would spend $300 or more a month on food but never eat at home. It was a bad rut I was in, didn't think anything of it. Thought about it some after we split up but ended up going into a I don't care phase.

I met my hubby though a friend we both knew online, (I grew up in Canada i live in the USA with him now as most of you have heard a billion times) the US is so much diff then back home!!
My hubby told me when I was in shape guys where most likely scared to ask me out because I was so beautiful. He told me that I am beautiful even now but when I get back in shape it will show along with my confidence.

Him and I been married since 2005, we got married on Valentines day.

Its been a rough road from trying to get down from 335ish (my top weight) to where I am now, up and down over the years, I even dropped half a person at one point (156lb loss), but because of all the making fun of over the years I got scared and put the weight back on...

This time i wont let it!!

Im determined to get my weight off for good this time!

Also Cause I wanna cosplay She-Hulk at comicon next year cause one of my friends said she would cosplay Hellcat since She-Hulk and Hellcat are best buddies!

I wrote myself a list pros and cons of getting healthy, made sure I was super mean to myself at the sametime, i had to give myself tough love!

Pros
- Living a long time to spend with my hubby/family/friends
- Being able to do things (run/walk/lift etc) and not be outta breath
- Enjoy more of what life has to offer

to name a few things, the cons always out weigh'd the bad

Cons
- Dying early
- Leaving my family/hubby/friends behind
- Being so overweight when i do pass on they casket will cost more being more heavy then my poor family having to carry my body being so heavy someone may hurt themselves
- Having my hubby wait on me hand and foot cause id be so overweight i can't do things for myself (bathe, cook, clean etc)
- Health insurance costing more
- Not getting a lot with life insurance

to name a few other things, it keeps me motivated to get my ass in check even more!

It's just not workouts its your Diet too :)

Here is some tips that may help ya cause it did help me :D

Make sure your eating enough calories (woman 1200 or more a day no less) reason no less your body will go into starvation mode and store everything and turn it back into weight/fat.
 
Carbs make sure low carb, cut back on white starch foods (potatoes, pasta etc) go half on the servings or less. Add in healthy fats for snacks avocado, nuts etc. I eat 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, keeps the metabolism up.

Increase your protein 150g or more per day, eat a lot of veggies (green ones). Increase your fiber it helps keep everything moving. Drink 10+ glasses of water a day. Add spices to your food (talking hot spicy stuff) as well as green tea and lemons. They help burn fat =)

Switch up your workouts, instead of doing just cardio, toss in some weight training. Use a diff cardio machine instead of the same one you been using everyday. The smaller you get the harder it gets cause it takes 3500 BURNED calories to lose 1lb of fat. Make sure your not eating processed food and check your sodium intake too, should be no more then 2500mg a day. To much sodium can cause you to hold water = weight gain. So stay away from processed foods!

What ive learned in my up and down weight loss/gain over the years, i hope it helps. Also make sure your not eating back the calories you burned. Burned calories are just that, it takes 3500 of them to lose 1lb remember that so if your eating back your burned calories you wont see any results.
Hang in there you wanna do this, YOU CAN! YOU GOT THIS!

Stress can cause weight gain/plateau's too. One thing i learned and anyone will say this, toss the scale away, just go by your clothes or weighing once a month, stress = weight killer. Also be sure to get 6-8hrs of sleep a night cause that does help too!

I eat and do a lot of protein cause i workout 5 days a week but 3 of those days im training 2-3hrs with weights/core/cardio, 2 days im training 1-1.5 hrs with cardio/core

Good luck

What I do:
Sunday: Upper/core/cardio
Monday : Core/cardio
Tuesday : Conditioning/core/cardio
Wed: Core/cardio
Thurs: Lower/core/cardio

those 3 big days i workout 2-3hrs

those 2 cardio days i do 1 to 1.5hrs of training

I always take fri/sat off

Your body always needs a day of rest and a day between upper/lower etc to recover, you don't you will have higher risk of injury and your body wont recover properly, eat more protein too, it helps recovery





2 years next month since I got started back on track!!

Over 100lbs down too!

Gained 200lbs when i quit smoking getting it off for good this time!

I don't weigh myself often but last time i hopped on my scale it says im truckin 100lbs of muscle now on my total weight WOO!

It's not easy, im going the old fashioned route, clean diet and exercise, once in awhile a cheat meal but busting my ass.

I haven't had any surgery, I will be honest years and years back I did try diet pills but the weight came back twice as fast when I stopped taking them, cause it caused high blood pressure. Which I should be off those meds soon, I was desperate cause I had a 8 month plateau that was haunting me. But I learned my lesson on that!

No taking the easy way out!

But lets get it done!

Thanks to all those family friends and even hubby for being my cheerleaders i couldn't have gotten this far without you all, thank you!

I look up to a lot of the ladies from WWE for inspiration these ladies are amazing, keep doing what you do!