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GUESS WHO'S BACK!?
Noire Is Back! Ready For Action!



Well I am Finally Back!
I will pay for my own internet and own CoX, No More sharing ^_^ All MINE! lol j/m . . . anyways!
Im back!
Need I say More?
I missed you all alot!!
XD

PS... Rich Don't worry I wouldn't do any crazy changes without my friends, I love you all! ^_^

Life Sucks

No Net
No Pc
Make Noire
crazy....
long story..
At the libary right now
I have to go times almost up...

I Miss all my friends...
and City Of Heroes

. . . . . . . .

Watched my life pass me by -- in the rearview mirror
Pictures frozen in time -- are becoming clearer
I don't wanna waste another day -- stuck in the shadow of my mistakes -- yeah

(Chorus)

Cause I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin -- to find a place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have -- what's left of me.

(Verse 2)

I've been dying inside -- little by little
Nowhere to go -- I'm goin outta my mind
An endless circle -- runnin from myself until
You gave me a reason for standing still

(Chorus)

And I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin -- to find the place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I would be
But you can have -- what's left of me.

(Hook)

Fallin' faster -- barely breathing
Give me somethin to believe in
Tell me it's not all in my head

Take what's left of this man
Make me whole once again

(Chorus)

Cause I want you -- and I feel you -- crawling underneath my skin
Like a hunger, like a burnin -- to find the place I've never been
Now I'm broken, and I'm faded -- I'm half the man I thought I would be
You can have, all that's left, (yeah, yeah, yeah) what's left of me

(Outro)

I've been dying inside you see
I'm goin outta my mind (outta my mind)
I'm just runnin' in circles all the time
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
I'm just runnin' in circles in my mind
Will you take what's left? x3 -- of me
Take what's left of me

This Vid Made Me Cry *sniffle*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3d-erz5Zt5E&eurl=


So Beautiful yet sad, the ups and downs of life and all

*sniffles, goes and grabs a tissue*

Why Do I Feel This Way

Stressed
Mixed Emotions
Feeling Like Crying
Sick To My Stomach

Blah who knows but all over the place . . . heh

New Layout!

Well tomorrow is my birthday!!
So its now feeling like Christmas, so I updated this page with a Christmas feel with colors and music, whatcha think? ^_^

Oh & I Love This Song!
I Have My Reasons, Thank-You ^_~


Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On


You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear
Before the door's closed
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend, yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe.
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
Ahh, ahh
Keep holding on
There's nothing you can say
Nothing you can do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
We'll make it through

Birthdays, Christmas, New Years, CoX !!

Well lets see . . . .

Its now December 4th, couple days ago was my mother in laws birthday, my birthday is in a few days, few more friends though out the rest of the month then my father in laws birthday, wow this is one busy month. After all those Christmas comes then new years. Jeebus, on top of all those things I will be painting the living room sometime within today/tonight and probably working on it for the rest of the week. Its a huge job that's for sure along with the rest of the house, but I am keeping busy that's the main thing. ^_^

Oh and then I work a day outta the week 3-4hrs on that day, I've asked for them to give me more hours if possible on the weekends so can start saving some $$$ !! But at this time of the year who knows. *shrugs* Its all good either way I don't mind.

I added more songs to my play list I think I have almost 150 now, I have a various mix of music but I love them all, most of the ones I been listening to as of late are dance tunes they been keeping me on my toes which is totally cool! ^_~

City Of Heroes/villains wise . . . We did another arena event last night, Heri hosted it we had a HUGE turn out! Minus all the disconnects from the servers end it was ALOT of fun, surprised it lasted as long as it did. We have made this a Sunday thing now, I hope it keeps going cause its pretty sweet! So if your a City Of Heroes/villains player and are interested come to Guardian Sunday Nights! 8pm EST! We do glad matches and some FFAs... Oh and As for the big ball of jello Hami himself, we rock his world 4 nights a week

Monday - 9pm EST
Wed - 9pm EST
Thursday - 9pm EST
Saturday - 7pm EST

We have had great raids so far, hami popped on us last Wed because of the release of the new Issue the lag was intense not to mention some that decided to raid in the trenchcoats and wings. But Its all good we got though it, that's the main thing, sure everyone died but its all good ^_^ Our new raid time is 26mins!! I know we will get it lower then that eventually give us time *grins* Other then that things been awesome game wise !!

Not sure what else to post really this is more just a ramble post but well I hope you enjoyed it. XD . . . I'm a dork and a geek I know, but you wouldn't be sitting here reading my blog otherwise, I know you Love Me! j/m . . . . Have a great day!



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Christmas Music!

Yup, you got it right. I been trying to cheer myself up some latley turning 25 in about 5 days trying to get into the holiday spirit of things as much as I can, kinda hard as of late but meh what the frap enjoy the music and I wish everyone a Happy Holiday/Merry Christmas. I hope my new year will be better then the last few months. Im hoping for some major changes for the better and to be happy.


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Dreams

Well another post, this one is probably really weird but I just woke up from a really weird dream of all things. It made me think about it then I tried to go back to sleep but you know what... I Can't! So now I got a huge brainstorm on this, I am not even going to load up my Yahoo Messenger until I get all this written down because I know once I load it up I am going to get IM'd like crazy!

But okay, here I go.

Have you ever have one of those dreams where you are sitting there after you have woken up and scratching your head going .... What the ..... Yup I have those quite often now a days. Thing is when I have mine I start to pick up the bits and peices that may fall in my life at some point in the past or this very day or what seems future holding and promising. Why? You might ask? Well for one dreams I have had in the past and some even now to this day they on and off, They are called Prophetic Dreams. What are those you might ask? Well here I will tell you . . .

Prophetic dreams: also referred to as Pyschic Dreams, they are dreams that seeingly foretell the future. One rational theory to explain this is that our dreaming mind is able to piece together bits of imformation and look at it. Normally we over look or consider it seriously because to us it A) Either don't make sence or B) Are not serious about it. In other words, our unconscious mind knows what is coming before we sit there and consciously put it together with the same information.

Another type of dream I have alot are Recurring Dreams, this word speaks for it self really but I will explain things if need be.

Recurring dreams: Most of these dreams tend to contain messages that will teach us about ourselves or someone that is close to us. At first it wont make sence and we all tend to over look it. So the dream will come back and we will have it again, as our mind saying, " Hey you fool, look listen " Trying to make the message clear as day but your mind and body don't see it that way. Not until about in my case the 4th or 5th dream. Some people notice it right away some people don't notice it all all some will finally notice it years and years later. But recrring dreams are quite common so don't freak out. They might recur daily, once a week, maybe once a month. These dreams sometimes point to a personal weakness, fear or something you can't cope with something that is happening or happend in your life, very rare it will be future set. But look at it this way, repetitive patterns in your dream can reveal some of the most valuable information about YOU so don't turn it away, you might accually learn something.

Now in my case I have a recurring dream that comes to me quite often, this is a dream I had when I was a teenager. Ill share it, I was sitting in my room drawing and it was a bright sunny day, I lived with my aunt and uncle. Just then I heard the doorbell, I didn't think anything of it because for one in highschool I didn't have many friends. But oddly enough my Uncle & Aunt called me saying someone was here to see me. I opened my bedroom door and looked down the stairs and told them to have whom ever it was come up and see me, just then I noticed a "guy" with long black hair. To this day I could NEVER see the face until a few months ago. It was totally weird. I still remember the first day I had this dream I was like "shrug" whatever ... but now I sit here.. and wonder ... because for one this guy what he did in the dream. I will keep that part a secert because well for one it still blows my mind away. But here now I will share some tips in overcoming your recurring dreams.

1) Understand your dream, you must be willing to accept some sort of change or undergo a total transformation weather it be YOU or YOUR LIFE.

2) You must be willing to look inside yourself and confront whatever you can/may find no matter how simple or difficult it could be.

3) Look at the dream from a objective point of view. Try to get passed the emotional and reactive elements of this dream and look at the images, the images that symbolize something weather they be masked by elements or anything that may be disturbing preventing you to look at the dream any deeper then you already have. This could be caused by your defense that your unconscious maybe putting up to say " NO WAIT " Thats where 4 falls into play

4) Be patient. Don't get discouraged if these dreams still recur over and over even after you thought you have come to understand them and know what they are and mean.

5) Learn to accept yourself truly and fully, understand yourself and most of all make sure you are or tend to be happy. Often times once you discover what you recurring dream is trying to tell you these dreams will change all together or maybe.... even disappear for good.

Who knows right? Some people say dreams are dreams. Hmm yeah sure to you but others they are peices of there life or what they want/need in there life, something they want/need to happen or in some cases what will happen. This can also fall into play with Epic Dreams, what is a Epic dream? Well again here I will tell you.

Epic Dreams: Or some call them Great Dreams, are so huge, so compelling and so in detail that you can't ignore them. Details from these dreams remain with you for years, months, days or even weeks as if you dreamt them last night. These kinda dreams possess alot of symbols of your life in some way. When you wake up from such a dream, you feel like you have found something great or amazing about YOU or about the WORLD or SOMEONE. It feels like you have had or want to have a life changing experience.

I accually had a epic dream the other day, before I went to sleep I read my one fortune I got from a fortune cookie a few weeks ago. It says something like, " You will decide to take a trip and travel, you will then come upon a fortune " Now to me, I have thought about taking a few trips here and there because I want to and meet people and have fun. For example: I been invited to Florda next year for a friends wedding that I met though City Of Heroes. Another place I have wanted to visit is back home in Canada to see my grandparents and a couple of my friends, weather I have to go by myself because I want to spend a couple weeks there. Then have my husband come up and get me on a weekend when he is off work. That would be SO AWESOME! Another few places I want to visit are California (have quite a few gaming friends there) Arizona (same as listed before) well anywhere else I want to go basicly have quite a few gaming friends. But on top of my list is my friends wedding, Back home, and Arizona then California.

But anyways!! The dream you probably ask, it was breath taking, Ive had alot of changes good and bad in the last little while in my life and well, to me this dream woke me up, realized what it is and who I want and need in my life. I wont say excatly mind you because hey thats personal, I will tell you this though, how will I accomplish this .... time will tell.

Well that is the end of this post for now, I will sure have more updates so stay tuned!

Phantom Of The Opera . . . .

lyrics - phantom of the opera

lyrics - music of the night

♥ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU♥

Which one is you?
Post your comment with the answer, mine it set as the title
*giggle*


♥ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU♥
if your chrushing on someone
and want them for the holiday

♥JINGLE BELLS ROCK♥
if your single and loving it

♥LET IT SNOW♥
if your just letting things flow for now

♥BABY ITS COLD OUTSIDE♥
if your taken by somone special

♥ILL BE HOME FOR CHRISTMAS♥
if confused and lost

♥RUN RUDOLF RUN♥
if your wild, flirty, and horny;)

♥ WINTER WONDERLAND♥
if u still love ur x and want them
baq so bad b-cuz with out them
ur lost !!

♥ RUDOLPH THE RED-NOSED REINDEER♥
if you used to like someone but the feelings have faded
and you really dont care about them anymore

Things I Am Thankful For .. ..

Well Thanksgiving has come and gone here in the USA, Alot of people ask what one is thankful for in the past year, here I will list a few things I am thankful for.

♥ Family

- My grandparents who have always been there and still are there for me no matter what happens, My husband & his family as well. I ♥ Love ♥ You Guys!

♥ Friends - Weather they be on or offline

- I wont mention names but they know who they are and why I am so thankful, I ♥ Love ♥ you guys!

♥ My Job

- I started a diffrent job in August, but its been wonderful on the like one day a week I go in ^_^

♥ My Cats

- I know it sounds weird but pets know when your down and when your up when it comes to feelings etc... they are always there for you no matter what. I ♥ Love ♥ My babies.


I know there is more its just my brain went blank... I gotta go clean up my house now.

♥ Noire ♥

Thanks To My Best Friend For Everything, This Song Explains Everything Exactly

lyrics - keep holding on

1st One Sounds Like Me, 2nd Little Quiz... Enjoy

To every girl....if you almost cry while reading this, it includes you....(this is what im talkin bout fellas. If you find a female like this hold on tight !!!)


♥To every girl that is SCARED to put her heart
out there again, because she has been HURT
too many times or so badly.

♥ To every girl that
dresses cute, not skanky.

♥ To every girl who
wants to be called beautiful, not hot.

♥To every girl that will spend her whole day
looking for the perfect present for you.

♥ To every girl that would die
to have a decent boyfriend.

♥ To every girl who would just once like
to be treated like a princess.

♥ To every girl that cries at night
because of another heartbreak.

♥ To every girl that
just wants to hold hands.

♥ To every girl that
kisses him with meaning.

♥ To every girl who
just wishes he cared more.

♥ To every girl who would just once want a guy to give
their jacket up when they are cold.

♥ To every girl who
just wants him to call.

♥ To every girl who lies
awake at night thinking about him.

♥ To every girl that
just wants to cuddle.

♥ To every girl that
just wants to sleep with him without having sex.

♥ To every girl who shows how much
she cares and gets nothing back.

♥ To every girl that thought
maybe this one could be the one'.

♥ To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff
when she actually doesn't think it is funny.

♥To every girl who is just looking for that one
and only and is having a rough time along the way.

♥ To every girl that doesn't want a guy who
just plays with her emotions but actually cares
about how she feels.

♥ To every girl who wants
words backed up with actions.

♥ To every girl that fell for all the lies
only to find themselves alone in the end.

♥ To every girl that gave her heart away
to have it shoved back in her face.

♥ To every girl that has faith that 'tomorrow will be a better day.'
And it will be.


The Quiz


001. What is Your Name? Tina
002. How old are you? I will be 25 next month on the 7th
003. What is the link to your website/blog/or myspace? Look at my links to the side of this page


004. Height: 5'4"
005. Where do you live? Missouri
006. Do you wear a lot of makeup? Nope
007. Piercings? 4

Your Perfect Date:
008. Age: 25 to 38 years old
009. His Body characteristics? Nope
010. Hair color: Dose not matter.
011. Where would you go? Any where as long as we have fun.
012. Is he: outgoing or shy? Both
013. Would you kiss on the first date? Possible
014. What about going farther than a kiss? No
015. Does he wear boxers or breifs? Dont not matter.

Which do you prefer?
016. Pizza or pasta? Pasta
017. Jeans or a dress? Jeans
018. Abercormbie and Fitch or Urban Outfitters? who with the what now?
019. Be Rich or Be Happy? Be happy
020. Shower or a Bath? Both
021. Gym or music? Music
022. Family or friends? Both
023. Kiss or hug? Both
024. Drugs or alcohol or none? None

Have you ever?
025. Failed a class? Yes
026. Ran away from home? Yes.
027. Cursed at your parents? Yes
028. Taken a dare too far? what was the dare? Nope
029. Flashed someone? Nope
030. Made out? Yes
031. Had a sexual experience with the same sex? What was it? Nope

Your Favorite:
032. TV Show: I have quite a few mostly comic cartoons
033. Clothes Store: Dont have one
034. School subject: Music, Art
035. Music Artist: Oy, I have to many
036. Song: again to many, heh
037. Food: Italian, Chinese, Mexican

Other...
038. Body type (slim/medium/athletic/other) Dose not matter
039. bra size? To big
040. Whats on your dresser? Radio and Alarm Clock.
041. Do you have any siblings? How old are they? Yes 3 of then 22, 19, 18
042. What do you wear to bed? T-shirt usually.
043. How old were you when you first had Sex? I was 17
044. Do you beleive in ghosts? Yes
045. Do you have your own pc? Yes I DID have 2 but now i only have 1.

Hopes, Dreams, Wishes, Needs, Wants For 2007 ...

Your probably sitting there wondering, oy vay what is she about to write. To tell the truth I am quite not sure. I been doing some thinking as of late on my dreams, hopes, wishes, needs, and wants... For the new year. There is much but I will only share some.

~ Making friends

Online or Offline? I say Both you can never have enough friends.

~ Meeting my friends

This would be so cool, I've met some great people in City Of Heroes/villains that I talk to all the time, it would mean the world to me to meet them in this new year, same with friends I met though myspace RP It would mean so much to me to meet at least a few of them in the new year, I know of 2 or 3 people id love to meet right now this minute because they mean so much to me!!

~ Wanting some people to be more understanding and supportive

I never ask for much, I just be myself ... Only thing I ask here is for support on my choices rather it be something I want/need or most of all my friends that I choose to talk to or meet.

~ Learning something new everyday

I don't know much no one ever does but to learn something new everyday would be pretty sweet, don't y'know and don't ja think?

~ Trying something new

Which it be a new style of clothes to new food, I don't care I just wanna try something new

~ To have fun

Life is to short, meet new people and have fun!!

~ Travel

I'd love to visit the west coast I have many friends there, I also have many friends over seas as well but Id love the west coast first.... For one IT IS WARM!

~ Why some people have to judge someone before they get to know them?

I hate when people do this, I was brought up to NEVER judge anyone until you get to know them. So please my wish is come on people get to know a person before you judge them.

~ To get my house cleaned up and remodeled some more

I been working on this project for awhile now Id love to finally complete quite a bit before spring, and even have it finished by the end of the year if possible.

~ To be happy

Not saying Im not happy, I mean somethings are making me happy right now but others just concern and make me question things... I am sure you understand

~ To visit family back home

I know there is quite a bit going on back home right now, I just hope all stays well and gets better for everyone

~ To loose more weight

I been battling this forever it seems, When I was in highschool I was really tiny but then I quit smoking and gained some weight not a lot mind you but still, I would so love to loose more


Not sure what else to write at the moment but if more comes up, Ill add it but for now....

One thing though, Id like to thank my dear friend and my many other friends that have been here for me helping me though a lot as of late, you guys have been wonderful and I love you all very much! You know who you are and I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I Must be off, thanks for taking the time to read and feel free to comment, NOT SPAM COMMENTS EITHER, Thank you and have a nice day.

Sorry, but im tired of spam comments on my blog.

*GLOMP*

Thanks Dani For This Pic, It Had Me Laughing So Frappen Hard!

Cute Joke

I got a little joke from my mother in law, its cute
Thx Mom

Two little potatoes are standing on the street corner.
One is aprostitute.
How can you tell which one is the prostitute?



Hold on...... You're gonna love it...



It's the one with the little sticker that says... I - DA - HO --

*laughs*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eBRHetKH4MQ

Remembrance Day/Veterans Day

In Flanders Fields

In Flanders fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses, row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly
Scarce heard amid the guns below.
We are the dead. Short days ago
We lived, saw dawn, felt sunset glow,
Loved, and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.

Take up your quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Doctor Major (later Lieutenant-Colonel) John McCrae of the 1st Field Artillery Brigade wrote this poem on May 3, 1915 after the battle at Ypres. The poem was later published in "Punch", December 8, 1915.

My Sharona !!

Ooh my little pretty one, pretty one.
When you gonna give me some time, Sharona?
Ooh you make my motor run, my motor run.
Gun it comin' off the line Sharona
Never gonna stop, give it up.
Such a dirty mind. Always get it up for the touch
of the younger kind. My my my i yi woo. M M M My Sharona...

Come a little closer huh, ah will ya huh.
Close enough to look in my eyes, Sharona.
Keeping it a mystery gets to me
Running down the length of my thighs, Sharona
Never gonna stop, give it up. Such a dirty mind.
Always get it up for the touch
of the younger kind. My my my i yi woo. M M M My Sharona...

When you gonna give it to me, give it to me.
It is just a matter of time Sharona
Is it just destiny, destiny?
Or is it just a game in my mind, Sharona?
Never gonna stop, give it up.
Such a dirty mind. Always get it up for the touch
of the younger kind. My my my i yi woo. M M M My Sharona...