Thursday I just couldn't sleep and I wrote this for hubby <3
It's now after 11pm, Thursday I think it's the 17Th of July (2009)
I just can't sleep toninght or spell for that fact & fuck it I am not going to scribble it out and fix it either. (typing just the way I wrote it lol)
I just have alot on my mind 90% of it has to do with my insulin and weight loss. I am hoping things are getting on track to be normal again
- My insulin levels
- My weight
All I really really want this year for my birthday and Christmas is those things and to have a baby with hubby, I understand we can always adopt but I want that glow and feeling of a life (or 2 or more) growing inside me, knowing we created someone, someone special, someone that is part of each of us someone that will be loved by both of us and our families.
But I seriously........
Well its the only 3 things I want this year for Christmas/Birthday
I am pushing hard to get to my goal some days its frustrating but I know I will get there.
I sit and listen now to the quiet
- The light snores of hubby
- the fans
- the cats walking along the floor
So peaceful & quiet
I know it will change when I get pregnant :P and when the kids will be born. But I will enjoy it now before that happens.
I know I need to sleep.
I need to get up in the morning and make my honey breakfast which I will.
His lunch is made and the coffee maker is set so that's a plus
I wonder if he will read this
His thoughts on it If he will say anything or maybe write something?
I can tell my handwriting has got worse over the years because I am used to typing. Ah well :P
I just wanna give hubby the family hes been dreaming about and wanting I have those same dreams and wants too. It's just you know as a women wanting to make my man happy anyway possible.
Having healthy babies
Having a healthy family
Keeping him & I healthy to live a long life together til we grow old as ancient trees and forget how we met. (He wrote that to me in a old letter from when we first got married lol)
It's all we both want
I know that
Knew that when we talked online
Reasons of a few why I fell in love with him and he fell in love with me
He is my soul mate
my best friend
and so much more
(same with him but I am a wife lol)
I love him so much and always will
I think my guilt has finally gone away from a couple years ago when we where having some problems.
I was stupid back then
Hubby is snoring up a storm tonight Slayer came to sit with me lol
He is glaring off into the bedroom @ hubby.
Guess the snoring bugged him.
Maybe I should try and sleep now. I just felt like writing something tonight.
Hmm... think Ill type is tomorrow then some and now a drink of water then try and sleep...
67 to my goal
I love you JoelB
Your wife always